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Mom’s doing great!

Posted by ab39 on November 29, 2007

  Isnt the heart an amazing thing? 

My mom has been feeling poorly so she finally went to the doctor.  After a stress test, they came back and told her that the bottom portion of her heart was not working very well.  She went in today, Thursday, for surgery.  The doctors came out and told my dad that she was doing great and that it was not as bad as originally thought.  They are going to send her home with meds. to help clear out her arteries.

WOW!  It is absolutley amazing how they can know how to help her….how they know what is wrong….and that after surgery today, she can already go home to recooperate.  I am sooo grateful to God for the good news.

Thank you Lord for answered prayers!     

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Happy Thanksgiving!

Posted by ab39 on November 23, 2007

 

Have you had a great day?  We did!  Lots of great food, desserts, laughter and conversation with family.  We actually cooked here at our home this year and had some family over to share the day with.  It was lots of fun.  🙂 

I have sooo much to be grateful for this year.  Everything from my husband, girls, families, friends, health, home, dogs and much more.  But I can truly say that I am most grateful that I have learned soo much this past year in my  spiritual walk with God…..which affects my everyday walk with everyone around me.  I thank the Lord for learning the value of taking one day at a time…for learning not to get caught up in the “whoo-haa” of everyday life….for learning that God is in control of my life….for learning that I am valuable to God and that I am loved by God more than I will ever be able to comprehend….and, I am grateful and thankful for the desire to want to learn more about God and His word. 

Dear Lord,

Thank you for loving me and for making me your own.  Remind me how to walk in your paths….how to remain focused on You and how to love you more and more with each passing day!  Thank you for taking care of me and for putting up with all my insecureties. 

In your most precious and Holy Name,  -Amen!

To each one of you that is reading this….God Bless You and I hope that your holidays are filled with God’s presence!  😉

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Livie-Love

Posted by ab39 on November 10, 2007

Yesterday while at work, my cell phone rang.  I grabbed it and answered and heard a voice on the other line that I did not recognize.  She began talking to me and introduced herself as Olivia’s english honors teacher at Blackman High School.  For a split second, I got worried and actually thought what Olivia had done to make the teacher call her parents. But, I was wrong.  She had only called to let me know that she really loved Olivia.  She than began to tell me that Olivia was one of 5 students out of 150 who turns her assignments in on time, follows all directions to a tee, always is on task, has a pleasant attitude and has not been late to class.  I was a little taken back by this…not because I dont know that Olivia is a great kid, but because the teachers usually only call when something is wrong.  She then told me that they have to read a chapter book every six weeks which has to be approved by her first.  After the six weeks is up, they have to write a detailed report and follow it with a poster board report.  She sends home an example to follow with directions on how to get it done.  She told me that Olivia was one out of 3 who actually followed all the directions to a tee and that she had  hung her report along with her poster on the board and has used it several times in other classes as an example of how to follow directions. 

I really was at a loss for words.  I know that ‘Livie is a good student, and I take for granted that she is getting her work done properly….I take it for granted by the report card she brings home.  But this time it was nice to hear someone call me up out of the blue and tell me that I have a good kid.

Soo, is it wrong to be proud of her?  NOPE!  I am proud of her.  She has a great heart and strives to do good in everything she does.  I thank the Lord for three wonderful and beautiful daughters.  They are huge blessings to me and I love them deeply!

Sooo to Olivia…..WAY TO GO and KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!  Mom and Dad love you!  🙂

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I’m My Own Worst Enemy

Posted by ab39 on November 9, 2007

I have figured out that I really am my own worst enemy.  I realize that I have set a high standard for myself as a mom, wife, daughter and friend.  Not that having a high standard is a bad thing, but when the standard is soo high that you cant possibly reach it, it becomes self-defeating.  For me personally, this comes from trying to live up to everyone else’s standards, and comparing myself to others.  Because I have fallen into this mind-set, not really realizing I was doing it, I began to think that I was not living right, dressing right, or even raising my kids right if I couldnt get it all done….and what would people think?  God has been showing me over the past year that I am an individual.  God has given me my own personality, lifestyle, gifts, and my own set of circumstances. 

For example:

Who says that you have to do your devotionals first thing in the morning?  I have found that doing my devotions and reading is easier in the evenings after everyone is in bed.

Who says that you have to cook your family dinner every night?  I have always fixed a big meal every night with everyone gathered around the table to eat.  Now, I am down to about 4 nights a week and have figured out that the rest of the time I can serve soup, sandwiches, salads, etc. and my family will not go hungry.

Why does my house have to look like it has just stepped out of a magazine?  As long as my girls feel comfortable and safe while they are growing up, and they keep inviting their friends over…..well, isnt “picked up’d” good enough?

Why did I think that I had to volunteer for every activity that my girls were (and are) involved with?  I definetly got stressed from doing too much with all the different activities.  I can go attend and support them by my presence instead of being in charge of something that can affect me and the happiness of my home by the way I am acting because I am doing too much.

And what about all the stuff that our kids bring home as fund raisers and beg us to help them sell  so they can go to the pizza party at the end?  After all this time, I am starting to get a little weary of it and have always felt guilt for not trying to get everyone I know to buy something when none of us actually need it or really dont even have the extra money for it.  Maybe I should try to buy one thing from each one of them, and let them know that our money is budgeted and maybe eventually they will understand the concept of having a little extra at the end of the month.

Who said that you have to look happy and pulled together all the time?  Sometimes life stinks!  It’s ok to acknowledge that I am not perfect, that I mess up….a lot….and I dont feel well or I am going thru a tough time, but I am doing the best I can.

I have learned that many of us women have this image of what we consider the perfect wife and mother should be.  But what happens on a day to day basis, which is called reality, does not always measure up to that image.  And so when it doesnt, we practically break our backs trying to make it measure up to the way we think things should be.  I have realized that its ok to be different….it’s ok to live my life that fits my family instead and not be afraid to do things differently. 

So for today, I will let go of my unreachable expectations that I have placed upon myself.  I will strive to “roll with it” a little more and try to sort out where my priorities lie.  God should always be the first priority and once I get that in line….everything else will fall in place.

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Nose Piercing, Homeless Men & Eye Liner

Posted by ab39 on November 5, 2007

This evening, Olivia (my 14, soon to be 15 yr. old) went with me to the grocery store.  We decided to make this weekly grocery trip to WalMart and I was anxious to get there and get back home.  While driving there, we came to a red light and noticed that a homeless man was laying in the grass on the side of the road taking a nap.  He was very grungy looking, and had nothing with him but a piece of cardboard – which he was using as a pillow.  Olivia noticed him first and pointed him out to me and asked me why he was sleeping so close to the road.  I told her I didn’t know why…and we drove on to the store.

Once we got into WalMart, we had a plan.  We had already made out our grocery list, so I gave her several items to go find and we split up….hoping to make this trip go by a little quicker than usual.  She found all the items I had asked her for…plus 1 more!  With a big smile on her face, she looked at me and said, “Mom,….as you know I will be 15 in just a couple of months.  This means I am growing up a little more. Right?”  I looked at her grinning, mischievious face and agreed that she was growing up.  She continued with “Well, several of my friends at school have told me that if I were to wear a little eye liner, it would bring out my eyes more and pull the makeup all together on my face.”  –  I looked at her strangely and said, “Pull the makeup together?  What does that mean?”  She replied with an exasperated tone, “MMOOMM, it just means it would look good on me. And, so while I was passing the make up aisle, I stopped and looked at the eye liner and found this one.  🙂  Can I get it?”  After looking it over and discussing other options, I finally gave in and told her she could get the eye liner.  She was very happy and gave me a hug and we continued on our grocery shopping quest in WalMart.

We finally got it all in the basket and headed for the cashier.  I did not pay attention to the young girl who was scanning our items, but apparently Olivia was.  Towards the end of our bagging and loading back into the cart, Olivia whispers in my ear, “Mom, look at the girl.  She is soo cute.”  I looked up at her and sure enough, she was very cute.  She was an african american girl, not much older than 18.  She was just cute as could be and had a beautiful smile to her.  She just seemed like she was genuinely nice.  This is what I saw in her….Olivia saw something different.  I told Olivia that she was right, and the young lady was cute.  As we were leaving the store, Olivia looks at me and says, “Didnt she look good with it?”  Now, mind you….I on occasion can read my children’s minds, but tonight I was just way too tired for it.  I looked back at Livie and said, “Are you talking about the cashier or am I missing something?”  —  “Yes, mom….the cashier.  Her nose piercing was small and really nice on her.  Can I get my nose pierced?”  This definetly took me off guard and I just looked at her.  Livie’s eyes were just sparkling and her smile was huge….she already knew what I was going to say, but she just had to ask it.  We talked about it all the way out to the car and while we were loading bags.  We both agreed that she was not to get one right now….or any time soon….or maybe never….and she better be ready to deal with her dad if she ever does.  🙂  She thought this was hilarious and laughed and laughed….mainly because she knew she had gotten me in a tither about it all!

Back on the road, heading home….there he was again.  The homeless man. Except this time, he was standing on the side of the road and he looked pitiful.  He had rolled one of his pant legs up and the whole side of his leg was raw….bleeding and infected.  It looked as if someone had tried to bandage it, but the bandage was full of blood and it was obvious that it was infected.  He was filthy….his face was covered in dirt and even tho he was standing there with his sign asking for money, he was staring off into space.  It truly was heartbreaking for both Olivia and I to see. Olivia looks at me and says, “Mom, would you ever let me go homeless?  Wouldnt you always make sure that would never happen to me?”  This was a harder question for me to answer.  I hesitated for a moment, and then tried to answer her question the best way I knew how. 

WOW!  Within 90 minutes, Olivia had asked me three questions about homeless people, eye liner and nose piercing!  I was not prepared to hear any of them and I’m not sure I answered any of them correctly.  But for now, I’m glad she was with me tonight and that we got to spend time together and that she felt like she could ask and say those things to me. 

There have been a lot of things going on in my life since this past spring.  We have made some changes in our lives that have affected each one of us here in the Blondin household…and I am not sure this is going to slow down quite yet.  God has taught me some large lessons over the past several months.  He has pointed one thing after another to me that has made me take a long, hard look at my heart and my attitude.  One thing I have always had is head knowledge about God, now I am learning heart knowlede. There is power in my continual conversation (or prayer) with God.  No matter how large or how small my concerns or questions are, He wants to hear about it.  God reminded me of that again tonight as Olivia and I passed the homeless man.  We both agreed that we should pray for him to find some help with his leg and that he would be safe and warm over the next few months.  Soo…we did.  Our prayers were not long and full of adjectives….nope…just short and sweet….but, I know God knew exactly what we were requesting. 

Soo, my encouragement for you today is just this….talk to God.  He wants to hear from us.  He loves us more than we could ever imagine.  Ask him questions….whether they are large questions, or small ones….He loves to hear it.  Quit finding answers thru yourself, or others…..let Him give you answers.  You might find it awkward to have a conversation with God…which is praying…but the more you do it, the easier it gets and the more you want to do it!  Keep your focus looking UP! And remember to pray….He would love to hear from you!  🙂

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